I have some friends aged 25-26.

Not some, but many. They are about 3 years elder of me.
Now I feel this age gap more than ever.
I remember I-san who I worked with at the book store. We know we are different, even if we really have a good relationship. Or, maybe that gap makes our relation nice.
We have a common difference which draws a strict line between us.
It’s not only with her, but also with any other friend in that age.
Sometimes I enjoy it, but sometimes not - especially when I think of one parson.

waiting working　(written last night at 9)

I’m just waiting for my boss to have a meeting (he is having another now). This kinda waiting could be solved, if we did the time managing. Most of the things I hate here could be solved by managing. I can see too many unsolved matters, and I can also understand why these things remain unsolved. “That is that”. Simple, silly and strong (and helpless) reason. But I do not need such reasons.



When I was junior high school, I wanted to quit the club I belonged (though I didn’t after all). The reason was simple – I didn’t like the atmosphere in there. I did not hate the people, but hated the way they do anything in the club, it was, “how the club was”. I asked my teacher about that, then he said “have you tried to change it?”
Of course not.
Should I? should I need to change it? Or, should it need to be changed?

Same thing often happens in my life. Now I do not ask anyone when I feel IYA about something, and still I do not try to change anything. I just have a distance from it. I know it’s a bit HIKYOU or something. And some people hate my stance.
I thought it was just a resignation. (Abandonment?)


But not.



I just didn’t (and don’t) know how to change.

I just didn’t know how, just needed a help. And still it’s the same.



“You should change it, you are the type who can change.”



I do nothing to change something, and you also do nothing to change me